Chicken or The Egg
If you can muster the courage, you can master the moment!
Consider this for 2022...
Clarity. Reflection. Living. Breathing. Freedom.
The end goal is making your newfound habit change so consistent that you have to ask yourself hours later, "Did I actually do that thing I've been trying to maintain??" Autopilot isn't such a bad thing when it's used correctly.
Change is hard, but what matters more? Immediate gratification or long term happiness?
Tomorrow, 1/4/22 marks one year of being alcohol free, and in charge of my life. You've all seen my journey, and if you haven't then welcome aboard. While I may focus on this aspect, it's because I feel that was my downfall for a long time. Removing that element, and a few other elements from my daily interactions consistently made the difference. And for me, doing it cold turkey, having a lady in my life who doesn't take BS, rather encourages me to keep going helped beyond measure. Especially when the urges got bad, she'd remind me "you got this far, do you really want to throw it all away and start over??" Waking up one day drinking my last beer, poetically titled "FML", for those of you in the know to what that acronym means...you get the point. For those of you who don't know what this means it is "Fuck. My. Life." -- generally reserved for what one might call "first world problems", however mental health is not a class specific problem. That's the rabbit hole I found myself in, day in and day out. In reality the beer was actually titled something else, but I saw it as that message. There are of course many other elements to the aspect of why I changed, but the aforementioned has been a defining factor in the process.
Last night as I was driving home I was reflecting upon the realities of what life has become over the past year, and yes it's been a lot of struggle, a lot of up and down, a lot of change taking place from quitting one job to starting another, to trying to officially start my own biz, to recording multiple albums with the band, spending hundreds of dollars on decisions that will hopefully make an impact...
This image to me represents a lot, the sunset sky reflecting in the windows, the thin wet ice reflecting the lights of the city. What you don't see, a bridge symbolizing there is a way across...you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking. There's a reason you never catch the sun, because when you do you'll become blinded by the light. (yes, my musical lyric reference comparisons are strong today)
It's been worth every struggle to get myself here day 364 of living free.
I'll leave you with this quote I wrote, "If you can muster the courage, you can master the moment."